Monday, December 16, 2019

My learning fall and rise

          The first day of school on August 12, 2019 I was actually excited and anxious at the same time. The semester before which was Spring of 2019,  I had left school early because of medical problems that cause me to be hospitalized which was suddenly and surprising. No one really knew about this beside the few people I told but going back to school and seeing everyone again was thrill. Walking into all my new classes I was thinking that it was going to be the same, regular old class . I thought that all the teacher were going to teach how they always teach us. 
          Well actually all my new classes were different but AP English was more different and it differ for the others. In this course we as the whole class were able to choose how we wanted to be taught and do things. At the beginning of the class Dr.Preston explain our options and walked out of the class for us to chose. Majority of the whole class discussed it and decided not to use boring textbooks or do long lots of essay but instead do journal and open source (blogs entries). I actually pretty cool how even after we end this course we can still continue we our blogs.
         When we had to start doing the blogs I was confused how/what to write or how to started it. But most of the blogs I had done I personally felt like they weren't good enough which still made me not posted although they were completed. A reading that the class read not to long was On Self-Reliance said "..ashamed of that divine idea which each of us represents." it help me understood on why I'm afraid posting my blogs. I'm maybe afraid of  people seeing my reading but me knowing I'm not fully expressing my thoughts. The journals were something my teacher have done before but not fully enforced it but in this class I wrote down my thinking but not all.
         All of this was new to me as well the other new things I was learning in every new classes that cause me to stress. Since everything was new to me I deiced not to do what I didn't understand causing me to fall behind. It remind of a line for the poem A Dream Within a Dream how everything goes by fast and sometimes you don't even noticed. Since I still have to keep to going to the doctors and take medicine it causes me to get tried easily, sometimes a I procrastinate and fall really behind.
         For myself to get caught up in this course I made a list of course blog. I made this not just to help me but other peers in the course too. I related this to the poem The Road Not Taken line 4 "And looked down one as far as I could" meaning I'm doing strategies like the list blog to help me stay on track. I have mostly been caught up with the work in this course.
         I have change as a learner since four months ago. I'm doing stuff done to really help me stay on track and complete my work. I learned to multitask listening to teachers and writing notes. For examples Socratic seminars I find very helpful to my understanding. One of the story that was told in class that got me to smile when Dr.Preston told us the story on Halloween day. His story was interesting even though you could tell he was making it up.